So sorry.

I think I described it as the stupidest thing I had ever done.
Out my mind.
Wasn't thinking.

I wasn't. And this concentrated self-absorption is really causing me to lack any consideration for others' feelings.

I've been able to experience the other end of that situation-not even as bad a situation as I was in. But still extremely terrifying.
And I'm dumbfounded. It hit me that night, but it hit me again-If something had happened, what would others have done? How would they perceive me from then on? How would their lives be affected?

There have to be better ways to get the message across.
Because it's actually very terrifying to have someone close to you in a dangerous situation, knowing that you can't exactly help if they ended up needing it.
And whichever end you're on, you'll be feeling pretty lousy afterwards.